Here's the truth: I kind of suck at being a mom.
I hate bath time and dinner time.
I relish every moment of nap time.
I look at my phone while we are out having breakfast.
I eat cake in front of him and refuse to share.
I don't always indulge in his imagination - "there are not magical fairies in the air vent, it's just metal"
I only let him read one book at night and sometimes I skip the last 1/4 of the book and he is none the wiser.
I really, really, REALLY hate dinner time.
I can't be bothered to find his helmet, so bike riding has been on hold for weeks.
We haven't had milk in the house for like 3 days now.
I buy the pancakes that come in a shake up canister.
I complain EVERY TIME I have to put his shoes on. He is now afraid I'm going to throw them away.
I frequently forget to send him to school with a snack.
Sometimes I have to yell at him, and I feel like I'm ruining him just by raising my voice.
Once or twice Ive argued with Steve in front of him. That really eats me up.
I don't play kid music in the car anymore.
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Small update
It has been a little while since my last update. I feel like I've been a mother forever.
I'll start with an update on C's situation. Mom is still being required by the courts to comply with a list of things to do. This doesn't seem to be getting completed at this time. In the best case scenario (for C), mom gets her stuff done and he stays with us while waiting.
However, that may not be the case. There is distant family in another state that the courts are requiring DSS to look into as a temporary placement while mom gets her act together. This is appalling to me. Reprehensible. If this were a permanent placement for him, I'd feel quite differently; however, another bandaid and another move for C is unnecessary and unfair to his development. I can't stand the "system."
Day to day update on C: he is enjoying his time in the local preschool. He seems to have more behavior issues at school than at home, but that is not a surprise to me. I wish the teacher would tell me more about his behavior instead of sugar-coating it. At home, however, he is a sweet, sweet child.
What about me? I'm faring well. College is getting me down a bit, and Steve and I never see each other because of his work schedule. I'm waiting for the summer when I can focus on organizing my life and my money (we are so stinking poor!) I don't really enjoy being in my history classes this semester. I don't really want to teach English anymore. I just want to be a mom.
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I'll start with an update on C's situation. Mom is still being required by the courts to comply with a list of things to do. This doesn't seem to be getting completed at this time. In the best case scenario (for C), mom gets her stuff done and he stays with us while waiting.
However, that may not be the case. There is distant family in another state that the courts are requiring DSS to look into as a temporary placement while mom gets her act together. This is appalling to me. Reprehensible. If this were a permanent placement for him, I'd feel quite differently; however, another bandaid and another move for C is unnecessary and unfair to his development. I can't stand the "system."
Day to day update on C: he is enjoying his time in the local preschool. He seems to have more behavior issues at school than at home, but that is not a surprise to me. I wish the teacher would tell me more about his behavior instead of sugar-coating it. At home, however, he is a sweet, sweet child.
What about me? I'm faring well. College is getting me down a bit, and Steve and I never see each other because of his work schedule. I'm waiting for the summer when I can focus on organizing my life and my money (we are so stinking poor!) I don't really enjoy being in my history classes this semester. I don't really want to teach English anymore. I just want to be a mom.
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