im a mom.
i am a mommy.
i am a mom.
i am a mother.
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when i say it out loud it sounds weird. i dont feel like a mother. i feel like a caretaker. i feel like a regular person that has to take care of children. i feel like i am simply MADE to take care of these particular babies.
but a mother? i am someone's mother? I guess... C has called me "the best foster mom ever" but in the next 20 minutes i had to reprimand him for something and i felt less than best. Baby S is awake, and i cant help but wonder if i could had tried a little harder to get her to sleep that MAYBE she'd be sleeping right now. i couldn't be her intuitive momma, right?
i dont know. i dont know what i am doing, really.
